Four years and two months ago I went from being a perfectly healthy 59 year old, to completely unwell.
It is now April of 2024.
Family members held space for me as I went through the most challenging, terrifying, dismantling time of my life.
This is a chapter in my story.
For nearly 3 and 1/2 years I had not been able to work. I am thankful to my family for supporting me during this time, particularly my former husband, father to my children. I will not go back to work for any institution that participated in the lies and harms perpetrated over the past 4+ years. I am now building back clientele in my field of wholistic health.
I was living on an island near the coast of British Columbia, Canada, where I worked for the school board as an educational assistant to one teenage student with extreme autism.
This student went on a one week vacation to mainland Vancouver, in February of 2020. When she returned to school, she was holding her lower back and screaming in pain. She is mostly nonverbal. Over the course of four days her symptoms increased and intensified, until her skin was the colour of mustard, and her temperature was scorching. Our little classroom had no windows or doors to the outside. I kept our door shut as to not let any contagions out to other students and staff (yes, their are such things as contagions). The perfect petri dish. On the 5th day following her return, I went suddenly from being perfectly healthy, to incapacitated. Living alone, I went in and out of conscious awareness, in a fever induced kind of fog. There is one hospital on Salt Spring Island, that instructed islanders not to come if sick. They turned away a co-worker at the emergency door. As a wholistic practitioner I keep many natural remedies, that in the previous years had worked well when my student had come to school with respiratory infections. Everything I took, had zero effect on this. Fever, weakness, difficulty breathing accompanied pain that began on the right side of my head. There it stayed for a couple days until moving down to the liver. From there it went to the right kidney (excruciating) across to the left kidney, up to my heart, and finally to the left side of my head. This cycle of extreme pain took approximately a week (but plagued me intermittently for about 3 years). I would wake from my near comatose stupor in racking pain, wondering for a few seconds where I was, and who I was before coming back to some sort of conscious reality. My bed would be routinely soaked with sweat. Later I had to throw the mattress away. My heart went into rapid irregular heart beat with palpitations, and I developed extreme vertigo. Often not having a horizon. It came with diminished eye sight. Three months later I developed P.O.T.S, which comes with soaring sudden blood pressure raises and tachycardia, 4 times blacking out. For approximately two years I suffered daily from neurological symptoms, were often I could not remember names, words, and my short term memory was nearly non existent, sentences were backwards and confused, verbally and written. I felt like I was walking on a boat, like a drunken sailor. Dizzy spells and light headedness came and went night and day. I had to sleep sitting up or the vertigo would increase. Eventually, after a couple of years I could then lay on my left side only. If I turned my head vertigo would ensue. This went on another year and a half, when then I was able to turn and sleep on my right side for a brief time, eventually increasing. My right leg sometimes took extra effort to walk. Occasionally I would have blurred vision for 10 to 15 minutes, frightening. Migraines lasted 3 to 4 days, and the pressure in my head made me wonder if my skull would crack. They came several times a month. For 3 and a half years I had constant sounds in my head. I do not call it tinnitus as it was not an inner ear issue. It came from extreme inflammation of the brain, causing degrees of circulation restriction. There were 3 main sounds; low jiggle bells, medium pitch fire, high pitch squeal. So loud and consuming that at times I could not hear anything else. It was deafening. Diminished circulation and poor oxygen uptake left my feet and hands blue, extreme over all weakness (having a bath or shower would leave me bedridden for the rest of the day). I had no taste and smell.
I discovered a correlation in the symptoms.
An inflamed vagus nerve.
This nerve runs from the brain, and effects respiration (breathing), heart rate and blood pressure, immune system responses, digestion, skin and muscle responses, speech, taste and smell, etc… Because of its role in the parasympathetic nervous system (involuntary), it plays a major role in inflammatory response throughout the entire body.
The symptoms caused by this inflammation (cytokine storm) directly effected my involuntary breathing. I would lay in bed consciously breathing double the exhale to inhale (calms the vagus nerve), afraid to go to sleep. I continued to treat the inflammation, and eventually it showed progress.
These are but a few of the symptoms I endured. There were many more, I counted over 30 at one point. Some were constant, other were intermittent.
This was hell.
For approximately three and a half years, I struggled daily with such extreme muscle weakness that I couldn’t walk stairs, squat down, bend over or lift anything. I remember the terrible grief I felt when I had to ask my daughter to pull on my boots. I had moved from the coast to Nelson, B.C., so I knew no one except my daughter and her husband.
I went to the emergency room in 4 different hospitals (in desperation) before I realized they could not help me. Ten years in British Columbia without a doctor (probably best). Walk in clinics have closed. Ten minutes on a phone call with a doctor, which I tried, was of no benefit. I went to naturopaths, they were of no help.
I was on my own.
I set out (from the beginning) to do everything and anything in my power to heal. By mid 2020, I spent a minimum of 8 hours a day, listening to people who had theories on what was happening with ‘SARS-cov2’. A few medical professionals and politicians were speaking out with their findings (that went against the narrative), but they were being censored, cancelled, fired and vilified.
I could see from the beginning that this was not a natural ‘virus’. And I saw the method to the madness was leading to novel ‘safe and effective’ injectables. Everything in me knew that both the unnatural bioweapon 1 (the contagion itself), and bioweapon 2, the mRNA injections were just that.
Interestingly, following the roll out of the mRNA injections, I saw how my symptoms were often the same as those who were experiencing injury caused by ‘bioweapon 2’.
So, how did I heal myself?
First and foremost, I did not give up. Even through depression and despair that I had never experienced before, I wanted to live. Often when at the thresh hold of death (several times a day in the first couple of years), I would close my eyes and with all my remaining will say, I am not dying today.
Secondly, I self diagnosed my symptoms (being a wholistic health practitioner for over 30 years helped) with research and keenly monitoring my experience.
Then I experimented with what I knew, specifically detoxification and nutrition, while adding other new therapeutics. All while applying mental/emotional principles of transmutation (permanent change). This came with many memories, emotion, amends, self forgiveness and raw vulnerability.
I had to let go of all comfort food and drink, completely. No more coffee (all caffeine), wine, wheat, sugar, corn etc., as they contributed to the inflammation, causing symptoms to worsen. Whatever is ‘in’ bioweapon 1, creates a condition that depletes the body of potassium. With the body’s need for near 5000 mg of potassium daily, I supplement and am conscious of getting it in my diet (without bananas and potatoes). Magnesium is needed to retain potassium, so I supplement this as well. Resveratrol, NAC, olive leaf, Vit C & D etc, are a part of my daily protocol.
The ketogenic diet with intermittent fasting became my friend. I learned the importance of not creating insulin resistance by eating frequently (constantly causing insulin spikes). I also engaged wholeheartedly in reducing stress on the liver, pancreas and kidneys by significantly lowering carbohydrates, constant detoxification, enzyme therapy’s and removing all sugars. I keep my blood flowing freely with serrapeptase and nattokinase while remaining hydrated. This is but a few of many therapeutics I continuously practice. It seems at this point, I can and will not go back to anything less than a ‘clean’ diet, with intermittent detoxification and continuous supplementation.
This post has a picture I recently had taken in Sedona, AZ where I travelled alone for the first time since the above occurred. I hiked the red rocks for a couple of weeks, and had no respiratory or heart issues, even at over 4,000 ft. above sea level. This was my test.
I AM HEALED.
I am grateful for my tenacity, perseverance and commitment.
Pain when mentally transmuted, moves conscious awareness into greater levels of love. This experience expanded my compassion exponentially, and has made me even more willing to share with others, so the suffering of illness can be avoided or removed.
I did this without the help of any institution, of which in my opinion have become corrupted by corporations, agendas and psychopathy. It is also my opinion that everyone in the medical profession, government and media (these 3 entities work in tandem) know what death, harm and injury have been caused by mandates, social engineering, and cleverly crafted contagions and injectables (and more). The amount of death and destruction created by bio-weapon 1&2, is insurmountable.
Some may be wilfully ignorant.
May all come to realize what they have done/are doing and as a result of this realization make amends to the best of their ability and swear never to participate in harming others ever again, no matter what the consequences.
And for those who are involved in deliberately poisoning the air, food and water also be awakened to their wrongdoings. And with this awakening, stop causing any more harm which includes nanotechnology leading to trans-humanism (the interface of biology and technology) .
Individuals involved in drug cartels, and in the trafficking of humans, may you awaken to your conscience.
I know that pure consciousness is our spiritual blueprint. God given.
With consciousness we have individuality (choice), while simultaneously connected to all that is, consciously, unconsciously and everything in between.
Humanity is not going in the right direction. The wars created by greed, with no regard for human life must stop now.
The agendas to entrap humanity, taking away our personal freedoms, enforced through military, police and AI, are at the root of future suffering. Do not succumb.
Learn how to transmute any energies within you that is anything less than love. There are hundreds of free writings on this site that teach just that.
Love yourself- Love each other. It is a daily process to further expand the awareness of Love, and the practice.
May this earthly realm be home for those who Love.
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