Remembering my entrance into transmutation of haunting emotion

Believing awareness was synonymous with freedom from feeling the pain

I could not have been more wrong.

Here is the truth.

I choose to evolve the emotional body/ mental patterns and programs

To see, to feel

a roller coaster of emotional vertigo that may not end.

Is awareness worth it?

Yes.

For now when love is present I know it.

For now when I speak of forgiveness, I know the depths of pain released from my soul.

For now when I speak of gratitude I know the tears that flowed into the earth.

Deepening, deepening deepening

Awareness